人生中重来都不觉得便秘会有几辛苦. 可是经过昨天的个人经验, 现在我完全可以体会得到那是有多他妈的痛苦!! 应该是因为在生病的那个期间吃了太aaaai多 antibiotic 说造成的 (妈说的).
有多痛苦?? 得需要动用到一条毛巾来让我咬着然后大力的 PUSH!! PUSH 个七八次才完全解决, 还要是有好几次快晕倒的 feeling... 不得了!
其实也不确定这样算不算便秘, 因为真的重来没试过（也不想再尝试). 好了, 真的有点恶心, 现在没事就谢天谢地了. That was definitely one of the most painful moments throughout my entire life..
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Friday, December 5, 2014
One Pau, One Soup and One Glass of Cereal
Yea, that tittle was actually what I had for this entire day.
Why?
Because it all started with one fine night after having my dinner with a few friends and got home feeling a little cold. Probably because I was caught under the rain during my way back, it was just drizzling though.
Then came the nightmare when I was at work.. My body started to shiver in cold and my head was literary boiling hot. I shit you not, that was perhaps the longest 9 hours in my life! Somehow I had to finish the whole day instead of going for medical leave during the middle of my work. And finally when the clock ticks at 6pm, went off straight towards the nearest clinic.
Fever. Nothing more than that, but it sure did give a tough time because I was almost sleeping on and off for the following two days with limited appetite. 2 days after, I felt better with the fever but my throat started to sore. Just when I thought it was SUPPOSED to be just a minor side effect from the fever, I was so wrong after I went to the clinic for the 2nd time when it was so pain until the extend that it hurts so bad even if I was to swallow my saliva. Its been the third day today and I can barely talk, drink and or eat. Oh ya, and I lost at least 2-3 KGs within these few days just because of this.
Because of that I had to extend my Medical Leave until today, which means tomorrow I will have to be back to work, with or without this shitty condition.
Honestly, I have no idea why am I so shitty enough to get this kind of shitty combo, I just don't get it. Why me :'(
Why?
Because it all started with one fine night after having my dinner with a few friends and got home feeling a little cold. Probably because I was caught under the rain during my way back, it was just drizzling though.
Then came the nightmare when I was at work.. My body started to shiver in cold and my head was literary boiling hot. I shit you not, that was perhaps the longest 9 hours in my life! Somehow I had to finish the whole day instead of going for medical leave during the middle of my work. And finally when the clock ticks at 6pm, went off straight towards the nearest clinic.
Fever. Nothing more than that, but it sure did give a tough time because I was almost sleeping on and off for the following two days with limited appetite. 2 days after, I felt better with the fever but my throat started to sore. Just when I thought it was SUPPOSED to be just a minor side effect from the fever, I was so wrong after I went to the clinic for the 2nd time when it was so pain until the extend that it hurts so bad even if I was to swallow my saliva. Its been the third day today and I can barely talk, drink and or eat. Oh ya, and I lost at least 2-3 KGs within these few days just because of this.
Because of that I had to extend my Medical Leave until today, which means tomorrow I will have to be back to work, with or without this shitty condition.
Honestly, I have no idea why am I so shitty enough to get this kind of shitty combo, I just don't get it. Why me :'(
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Work Life Balance...?
Been some time since I ended my university life and looking back at it, it was actually last year's December when I finished my very last paper of my Bachelor Degree paper and now its almost November already! Just coming to think of how fast everything goes sadden me some times, especially when I always thought about what I have missed out during those days which I clearly have missed the opportunity to make them up.
Starting to work makes me realize more about the importance and the need for self-esteem and self-growth. Right now I would say I am satisfied (still) with my job but would really like to find something that I really enjoy doing, that I could learn invaluable experience as well as meeting up all sorts of awesome people. Having that in mind is one thing, but I wonder what's the proper action or effort I should be doing before I could really get to whatever I want? Guess that will be my short-term goal for now?
Job aside. Now, life..
Always thankful to have supportive family members and awesome friends that are constantly playing a big role. However, there is just this one more person that I have yet to have the privilege to meet and to share and be shared with whatever highs and lows that I've been going through... A partner.
Just not THE one or its just myself not making enough effort? I just don't know.
Starting to work makes me realize more about the importance and the need for self-esteem and self-growth. Right now I would say I am satisfied (still) with my job but would really like to find something that I really enjoy doing, that I could learn invaluable experience as well as meeting up all sorts of awesome people. Having that in mind is one thing, but I wonder what's the proper action or effort I should be doing before I could really get to whatever I want? Guess that will be my short-term goal for now?
Job aside. Now, life..
Always thankful to have supportive family members and awesome friends that are constantly playing a big role. However, there is just this one more person that I have yet to have the privilege to meet and to share and be shared with whatever highs and lows that I've been going through... A partner.
Just not THE one or its just myself not making enough effort? I just don't know.
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
回家真好~
Been more than three months since the last time when I was back at home in KB and ever had I thought I would be going back there so soon once I have started my working life over here. Oh well, all thanks to the friend who just got married which I got myself a pretty legit reason to head back despite just having started my work about 4 months or so.
It was a good opportunity for a quick gathering as well with some of the long-lost buddies (although there are still a few of them who were missing). Of course it was also good to be back home, as always. To get together with mom, dad and Benny is always a good thing.
Gotta say that a 3 days 2 night trip back home is definitely not going to be enough, I need more of that :'(
Congratulation once more to the newlywed couple there, may happiness and wellness be with you and your family! CHEERS~~
It was a good opportunity for a quick gathering as well with some of the long-lost buddies (although there are still a few of them who were missing). Of course it was also good to be back home, as always. To get together with mom, dad and Benny is always a good thing.
Gotta say that a 3 days 2 night trip back home is definitely not going to be enough, I need more of that :'(
Congratulation once more to the newlywed couple there, may happiness and wellness be with you and your family! CHEERS~~
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
愧疚
我相信世上每个人看或是听到自己家人, 更加是父母哭泣的话, 都会忍不住心软或是愧疚.. 至少我会..
离开家里人独自住在外的我有个不好的习惯, 也或者可以说是偏见. 怎么说都好, 当我有空挡的时间我终是经常联络妈而忽略了爸. 对，虽然我都会叫妈把电话传去给爸听然后在跟他问好. 可是我并没有发现到其实这样有可能会让爸误会说我不想和他通话, 但我并没有任何这样子的想法. 唯独只是说有时候真的会有比较少话题跟他可以聊, 但其实也都只是我自己的想法..
我, 真的可以明白身为父母的会有多希望自己的儿女可以多点陪伴自己, 我真的明白..
反省了以后真的觉得很愧疚, 很后悔. 还记得当我看见爸爸流下他对他母亲的那些眼泪, 当下的我真的深深舍不得, 心也很痛. 真的不想以后会有一大堆的 '早知道'.
刚打给了爸, 只是普通的闲聊, 关心了他一下, 我真个人放松了..
我, 爱你们 <3 p="">
离开家里人独自住在外的我有个不好的习惯, 也或者可以说是偏见. 怎么说都好, 当我有空挡的时间我终是经常联络妈而忽略了爸. 对，虽然我都会叫妈把电话传去给爸听然后在跟他问好. 可是我并没有发现到其实这样有可能会让爸误会说我不想和他通话, 但我并没有任何这样子的想法. 唯独只是说有时候真的会有比较少话题跟他可以聊, 但其实也都只是我自己的想法..
我, 真的可以明白身为父母的会有多希望自己的儿女可以多点陪伴自己, 我真的明白..
反省了以后真的觉得很愧疚, 很后悔. 还记得当我看见爸爸流下他对他母亲的那些眼泪, 当下的我真的深深舍不得, 心也很痛. 真的不想以后会有一大堆的 '早知道'.
刚打给了爸, 只是普通的闲聊, 关心了他一下, 我真个人放松了..
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
A little update
Just when I thought my birthday for this year was probably the one
that least remembered and celebrated, I was proved to be wrong.
Had about 6 separate occasions all accompanied by different friends who dedicated some time of theirs for me. And out of the 6, I had 3 different cakes to eat and bring home as well. Homies, housemates, condo-mate and the very first time of my post birthday celebration with the colleague was also another unexpected one. So thoughtful of them to actually surprised me with a cake during our first ever (almost-complete-team-outing) even though I am just 1 month old with the team.
Housemates who made the effort to actually switched of the main electric power switch just to make me get out of the room with the candled cake prepared right in front of my door. Condo-mate who out of nowhere asked me out for a coffee drink and bought me brownie, coffee and the two(guys) of us. Homies who also spent their time with a dinner followed by a cake-from-behind scene. Then a good friend who brought me out for supper and a heart to heart talk session that she cried like a mad cow. Last but not least another dinner and drinking session that I enjoyed much with the one that friendzoned me, yeah :')
Just an update to show how really thankful I am to have these people that made my life a little more interesting and meaningful. Of courses the blesses from the family as well.Thanks peeps :)
Had about 6 separate occasions all accompanied by different friends who dedicated some time of theirs for me. And out of the 6, I had 3 different cakes to eat and bring home as well. Homies, housemates, condo-mate and the very first time of my post birthday celebration with the colleague was also another unexpected one. So thoughtful of them to actually surprised me with a cake during our first ever (almost-complete-team-outing) even though I am just 1 month old with the team.
Housemates who made the effort to actually switched of the main electric power switch just to make me get out of the room with the candled cake prepared right in front of my door. Condo-mate who out of nowhere asked me out for a coffee drink and bought me brownie, coffee and the two(guys) of us. Homies who also spent their time with a dinner followed by a cake-from-behind scene. Then a good friend who brought me out for supper and a heart to heart talk session that she cried like a mad cow. Last but not least another dinner and drinking session that I enjoyed much with the one that friendzoned me, yeah :')
Just an update to show how really thankful I am to have these people that made my life a little more interesting and meaningful. Of courses the blesses from the family as well.Thanks peeps :)
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
我, 二十二了! !
Sweet 16th, Legal 21st... How about 22nd then??
Oh well, officially turns 22 today and I think I really need some time to get used to it, as in how the way my pre-birthday and the actual day itself would go around. This year's birthday is officially the first year that I spent as a working person instead of a student. Oh well, there is difference of course (at least for my case)
Birthday back then used to be celebrated along with uni friends and/or hometown friends before or during the actual day. But this time around it just feels a little bit different. Difference in the sense that everyone is busy with his or her work / study and I am the only one here having my off-day (I work on shifts) so yea, who's gonna celebrate with me? =/
But still, thankful enough that I spent at least one full day with with some good friends yesterday which is always something good. Honestly speaking, such occasion make me miss the days that I used to spend during my uni life :')
Oh well, blessed with wishes from family and friends, I am of course happy, thank you guys!
Oh well, officially turns 22 today and I think I really need some time to get used to it, as in how the way my pre-birthday and the actual day itself would go around. This year's birthday is officially the first year that I spent as a working person instead of a student. Oh well, there is difference of course (at least for my case)
Birthday back then used to be celebrated along with uni friends and/or hometown friends before or during the actual day. But this time around it just feels a little bit different. Difference in the sense that everyone is busy with his or her work / study and I am the only one here having my off-day (I work on shifts) so yea, who's gonna celebrate with me? =/
But still, thankful enough that I spent at least one full day with with some good friends yesterday which is always something good. Honestly speaking, such occasion make me miss the days that I used to spend during my uni life :')
Oh well, blessed with wishes from family and friends, I am of course happy, thank you guys!
Monday, June 23, 2014
不知不觉的...
工作暂时是还蛮有趣, 每天都接触到不同的人, 事, 物.. 幸运的我在开工的第一个月里就有机会遇见公司的 CEO, 还享受了一整天, hohoho~
Super Hero Night!
从快要考试, 到期待着我人生中的第一次毕业典礼, 到经历过找工作的过程, 再到真正的踏入社会成为工作人士.. 这些, 都只在短短的六个月里面发生.. 只能说时间真的过得非常快.
坦白说, 有时候没事做想东想西时就会不知觉得想起大学时候的时光，有时候还真的觉得自己有很多事情还没有在适当的时候去体验, 经历.. 问自己又没有后悔? 有... 可是, 过去的就只好让它过去.. 还好几乎每个周末都有跟朋友聚集在一起的机会. 大家在一起的感觉真爽 :) 当然, 还有一些我更后悔没办法经历的过程.. 唯有留下那些 '又爱又恨' 的回忆, 哎~ :')
好了, 是时候睡觉了.. 明天会更好! :D
Thursday, May 22, 2014
The path not chosen.
Been months since I have really sat down in front of my laptop and going for career fairs in search of my very first job.. Talking about stepping into the new chapter of my life from the previous chapter isn't just an overnight thing eh. Why so? Mainly because of the 'transition period' was slightly longer than my initial expectation. At first my ideal plan was to actually get myself a job BEFORE my convocation, which will be this coming Saturday, however that didn't really turn out to be the way I wanted..
I have always hoped to get the offer from company B given with the job position provided, however, there is no guarantee that I would get the deal done after the second interview! (not to mention, the third one leh?!) On the other note, company A that offered a less favored job position, actually got better remuneration benefit and it is sooooo near to my current staying place! No doubt company B might and SHOULD be giving me more opportunity to learn and even grow. But after much advise from the experienced one, company A was the preferred choice and I myself is very much attracted to it after weighing on the pros and cons of both companies.
Oh well, hopefully there will not be this one day that I actually sit down and wonder on why didn't I take the other option instead...
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Dwindling Patience.
Its been months and I am still sending off resume to companies, waiting for replies and answers. To be honest, I am starting to get a little bit frustrated about myself for the situation that I am currently at. Though there are still many friends who are also enduring such a period of time, and some are actually enjoying still. Well I may be spending my time searching for job still, but don't think
it is appropriate to be categorized as the "unemployment'' sector as I wasn't laid off or whatsoever. Instead, I GRADUATED :))
Again, I am happily back at home in KB now. But this time around I no longer have that similar kind of excitement that I usually had during my semester break back in my uni days. Guess its probably because I realize that the next time I would go back to KL, its no longer to resume my studies in uni but for interviews and all. Ahhh~
Apart from my interviews and getting myself a job, the next thing that excites me the most is definitely my upcoming convocation! Somehow, I have this contradicting thought which a part of me is looking forward for that once in a lifetime moment, while another part of me is feeling heavy hearted upon realizing that I will no longer be a student and inevitably has to move myself into another stage of life..
Again, I am happily back at home in KB now. But this time around I no longer have that similar kind of excitement that I usually had during my semester break back in my uni days. Guess its probably because I realize that the next time I would go back to KL, its no longer to resume my studies in uni but for interviews and all. Ahhh~
Apart from my interviews and getting myself a job, the next thing that excites me the most is definitely my upcoming convocation! Somehow, I have this contradicting thought which a part of me is looking forward for that once in a lifetime moment, while another part of me is feeling heavy hearted upon realizing that I will no longer be a student and inevitably has to move myself into another stage of life..
Sunday, March 23, 2014
Not so bad after all.
Its been almost 4 weeks since that day when I talked about getting a call to go for an interview. Well, apparently that one didn't turn out well because I wasn't able to provide firm answers for certain questions which the interviewer asked. The worse part was because those were quite important questions as they were the required criteria for that particular job position that I asked for. Put it this way, I just couldn't simply agree or promise something that I clearly got no control of, which is my mobility, so yea, that sums it up =/
Well here I am in KL waiting and hoping for good news and at the same time wondering around with friends. But good thing that I manage to make time to read on everyday news to at least know what is going on, gotta gain more general knowledge, that is for sure.
Oh ya, just decided of going back to Kelantan tomorrow :D Partly because I have nothing much better to do over here and it is better to actually go back since mom and dad misses me like mad, awww~
So then I waited and hanged around in KL until another call came to me. This one required 3 stages before I am actually an official management trainee. So let's hope for the best that I pass my second stage interview to the last stage eh!
Well here I am in KL waiting and hoping for good news and at the same time wondering around with friends. But good thing that I manage to make time to read on everyday news to at least know what is going on, gotta gain more general knowledge, that is for sure.
Oh ya, just decided of going back to Kelantan tomorrow :D Partly because I have nothing much better to do over here and it is better to actually go back since mom and dad misses me like mad, awww~
So then I waited and hanged around in KL until another call came to me. This one required 3 stages before I am actually an official management trainee. So let's hope for the best that I pass my second stage interview to the last stage eh!
Saturday, March 1, 2014
So far so good...
Been almost 2 months since the day I got back home from Subang. Happily indulging the love and everything that I have back here, all is well..
In the mean time of enjoying, of course I gotta look around for jobs. After much delay with my lousy excuses of demanding myself with a little more time to slack around, its time that I finally made up and resume and CV and started sending to companies with vacancies available. To be honest, every vacancy available looks to be an opportunity for me really. And thankfully there was a call that asked me for a interview at last, and it was from a bank! After some discussion with my parents and there goes the decision of making a trip down to KL for the interview when I have yet to settle my permanent accommodation when I actually start working over there. Good thing to have friends around that are more than willing to provide me with temporary shelter.
Well, guess its almost time for me to move on to the next phase of my life. May not be as soon, but it is surely some where around the corner. Still can't quite believe that I am actually at my current stage of life, time really flies..
Guys, although I may still be fresh from my university life but I am really starting to miss those days already. Appreciate them while you still can, live every of your moment to the fullest with no regrets! Guess you guys would have seen and or listened advises like these from someone else that has far more experience than I do, but yea, I am really starting to appreciate those advises although it may be a little too late..
Night peeps~
In the mean time of enjoying, of course I gotta look around for jobs. After much delay with my lousy excuses of demanding myself with a little more time to slack around, its time that I finally made up and resume and CV and started sending to companies with vacancies available. To be honest, every vacancy available looks to be an opportunity for me really. And thankfully there was a call that asked me for a interview at last, and it was from a bank! After some discussion with my parents and there goes the decision of making a trip down to KL for the interview when I have yet to settle my permanent accommodation when I actually start working over there. Good thing to have friends around that are more than willing to provide me with temporary shelter.
Well, guess its almost time for me to move on to the next phase of my life. May not be as soon, but it is surely some where around the corner. Still can't quite believe that I am actually at my current stage of life, time really flies..
Guys, although I may still be fresh from my university life but I am really starting to miss those days already. Appreciate them while you still can, live every of your moment to the fullest with no regrets! Guess you guys would have seen and or listened advises like these from someone else that has far more experience than I do, but yea, I am really starting to appreciate those advises although it may be a little too late..
Night peeps~
Sunday, February 9, 2014
Happy Lunar New Year!
How is your Lunar New Year doing so far? Food and joy says it all for my CNY. It's the 10th day already but it was just like yesterday when I first got back granny (mom's). Somehow, things got a little different this time round especially the atmosphere back at Teluk Intan. It wasn't as happening as it was back then just because granny (dad's) isn't with us anymore.. Some decided not to go back, some decided to go for vacation instead. It's actually pretty heartache to see such incompleteness in the family that was used to be complete during such reunion.
Apart from that, this year will most probably be the last CNY for me to actually spend time reuniting with my buddies in Kelantan since I will be working in KL soon.. And that simply means I will only be visiting Teluk Intan due to the limited leave available once I started working.
Honestly, I am really enjoying my time reuniting with my many of my friends right now, probably due to the fact that I know I will no longer have that kind of chance to enjoy such moment. Gotta really learn to cherish more of what I am currently having, and what I will have in the future..
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
不是不试, 而是真的累了...
每当我向朋友诉苦的时候,他们都说 ‘是你的,就会是你的’ 或者是 ‘要来的,迟早会来’... 换句话说就是叫我耐心的,慢慢的, 等.
我心想, 不是我没耐心等不了, 而是我拿每次付出的一切, 结果都是白费的. 一次不行,再来过.. 二次不行,没关系再试过.. 三,四,五次都行不通我还真的不知道该怨谁.. 我,没有爱迪生那份无比的耐心可顶到一百多次才把他那伟大的灯泡成功的发明完成. 有时候心还真的蛮灰, 也很累..
不是不知福, 可是有时候真的不知道自己应该怎样做才可以得到想要的,自己到底是哪里不对了. 还真的是很一头雾水. 还有, 那些‘只要你幸福我都为你高兴’的废话只是白痴才会说的, 那么伟大还不如去当个和尚?! (no offense to any monk and of course the sacredness of being one)
很难得才会用华语记录我的 blog, 唯有在这种情况下才会小写两句.. 很少见哦~
我心想, 不是我没耐心等不了, 而是我拿每次付出的一切, 结果都是白费的. 一次不行,再来过.. 二次不行,没关系再试过.. 三,四,五次都行不通我还真的不知道该怨谁.. 我,没有爱迪生那份无比的耐心可顶到一百多次才把他那伟大的灯泡成功的发明完成. 有时候心还真的蛮灰, 也很累..
不是不知福, 可是有时候真的不知道自己应该怎样做才可以得到想要的,自己到底是哪里不对了. 还真的是很一头雾水. 还有, 那些‘只要你幸福我都为你高兴’的废话只是白痴才会说的, 那么伟大还不如去当个和尚?! (no offense to any monk and of course the sacredness of being one)
很难得才会用华语记录我的 blog, 唯有在这种情况下才会小写两句.. 很少见哦~
Friday, January 17, 2014
Moment of truth.
For one reason or another, I finally got the balls to actually spit it out. May not be the best of time, but well, never know when will I ever have that gutsy again!!
That heart-pounding moment when was something like the kick of smoking pot (as if I did). Oh well, it turned out to be, alright still... But we shall see, we shall see how it goes.
That heart-pounding moment when was something like the kick of smoking pot (as if I did). Oh well, it turned out to be, alright still... But we shall see, we shall see how it goes.
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